Diary about peace and freedom

Today I got very sad news. One other friend of mine in Gaza had a friend killed today by Israel.
I am very worried about my other friends there, I wish I hear from them soon!
My day today has been running errands here and there and in the mean while trying to come to online to see if any of my friends have been online.
I told my friend lastnite that I wanna help them or someone who needs help in Palestine, I know there are many volunteer organisations perhaps at the area too, but I thought it would be nicer to ask if I could send little something straight to her and she would help someone who needs it the most.
I know its not much, but maybe it helpes someone..

I try to think something more to write now, but all I have in my mind are those dead people who had been killed today. I saw a picture of one of them in net, young man just about to reached his manhood. I am thinking in my mind.. How cruel is this world to humans? Are we so stupid and blind not to know the reason why all these people are dieing there? I still don't belive in terrorism, I'm sorry if that shocks someone, but I think there is a nation who has been oppressed for decades and they have no other choice but to try to fight back. And this is what we here call terrorism?
Who and why someone wants us to believe so? Who benefits this situation? What do they want? What is the reason for doing this? All kinds of questions are running in my mind and I have a feeling I'm not the only one..
..but where could I get answers to my questions? And if I got answers from someone, would it help any? What could we do to make this stop?
Inside my heart, I feel the despair of Palestinians and my simple mind cannot understand why this is happening and my stubborn nature refuses to think there is nothing to do!
My mind is frozen now.. I think I will continue my thoughts tomorrow insha'llah..

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Today I have been so sad.. I had to confront people online, who I have been looking up to once in my life, who I always thought to be smart people. Today I was a part of a conversation about Islam, Arabs, Muslims and so on. I was talking to people who think them selves so smart they dont even need to learn more about Islam, because they already knew it all.
Ofcourse they "knew" that all muslim people are terrorist and Islam is all about war, hate and revenge. They also Knew how muslims torture animals in the name of Allah and how suicide bombers kill innocent people all the time without any reason.
And ofcourse I am silly, stupid and complitely lost my mind and come crazy because I have converted to Muslim..
I knew this is the opinion here, what I didnt know was they dont even listen, they dont even care to know.
It made me so sad. And frustrated too.
Im happy to hear about Ahmed, he is a brave boy and I pray with him and for him and I hope someday he will be having a life what makes him happy!
Im glad that my friend found time to add videos and llinks here, I think it's important to show more documents about Palestine-Israel issue.
I see our goal is very very far and the road there will be so hard. I mean by this our goal; to let the whole world know the real truth, it's not gonna be easy.
Today proved me how hard it is to try to change people image about Islam here and I didnt even get to the Palestine issue and I'm already concidered a terrorist lover! It realle made me sad.
But what I also know, they are the only losers in that, if they dont even wanna learn the beauty of Islam, it's their loss not mine.
I hope God will give me strenght in this and to all people strugling with these things.
I hope our blog opens more eyes and makes people think about this..
I wish you luck my friend for youor exams and I hope it will be calm there for that time, I also hope Ahmed suffers no pain while he does his exams

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Today is the first day of graduation exams, it is what we call here tawjihi, it's a huge thing here and all over the Arab world, those who pass these exams get to college. the exams were late to come this year [as always] because some Israeli soldier held them on a checkpoint for "checking". every book every paper, the whole education system has got to be approved by Israel before getting in the hands of Palestinians. 75,000 students at least awaited for this day in Gaza and the West Bank. under siege, kids will be taking exams these up coming 20 days in some cities without electricity, without enough food, without enough water, without a home to return to, or even after the lost of some family members. Ahmad has a story to tell about this day, he's a 17 years old student from Gaza, around a month and a half ago he left his house to go take a course in a near by neighborhood getting ready for such a huge day like today, as he was walking there a helicopter shot a missile.
he cant walk any more, he lost most of his 2 legs, his left arm and his right arm's fingers, his young body has been smashed, it's a miracle that he's still alive, praises be to the Lord! he just woke up yesterday. he said "i want to take the exams and i will succeed because the occupation can never stop me from learning". the occupation took parts of Ahmad's body but it has not taken his hope, it has not touched his faith. i am proud to relate to people with such carriage, i am proud to tell their story, i am never scared to speak about them. maybe you will be too busy trying to find the right cloths matching with the right shoes and bags, or answering your phone having a party or driving your car to work, Ahmad will be busy trying to survive, trying to succeed after a month and a half in a coma. in his own words he prays that the pain doesn't hit during exam time so he can focus, please take one minutes of your time to pray with him and all others who are trying to have an education under the shadows of apache helicopters!
i saw something different than a missile when i was at school taking final exams. many students have seen different things which makes different stories, some of these stories are trapped on a checkpoint somewhere in the West Bank or Gaza, others are buried with their tellers, some are scared to see the light. but they all are witnesses, drawing history even by silence... at least to those who lived them.
since i started typing i was thinking of something to say to my friend, but i am afraid the words are betraying me, if i tried to comfort you I'm sure i will fail and i sure do not want you to feel scared. forgive me.

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I watched this documentary what reveales how Israel hides the truth about Palestinians resisting occupation by violence whitch is the only way left for them to defend them selves from strong Israel. Israel controls news and shapes them to look like the Palestinians attacks against Israel on Israelis soil and Israel is defending it self from vicious terrorists. This document proves Israel threthning journalists, jews and anyone who tries to tell the real truth about the Israel occuppieing Palestinian land, killing Palestinian women and children, demolishing Palestinian homes and acting against humanity in every possible way. This document made me cry. I have learned about this cruelty by searching information, but what I did not know was that Israel is systematicly stealing other lands and hiding the truth by killing more innocent people and doing it even more bad way then any genoside or other crimes has ever be done!
Now I truly realise the terrorist of the world is not any group what usa defines as terrorist groups, but Israel only and its allyes and anyone who closes their eyes from this.
The more i get in this, the more i found information about this; the more i wonder.. if there even exists terrorists in this world.. Israel seems to have a lot of energy on making the truth look different.. who knows.. maybe they have made the terrorist acts too, or if not made them they sure know how to use those in media for them!
Actually.. what I have found today.. about all the people who has been killed by Israel because of trying to spread the truth.. I'm starting to be little scared too..

I had a change to talk with my friend today and I'm touched of her writings and I feel quilty of having so easy life while others have lost all including their humanity! I wish there was more I could do but to write my thoughts to this blog in hope of more people to read this and take action to stop this. I even wrote an email to my countrys minister for foreign affairs and asked him to give me an answer what I too can understand on why is Israel allowed to do their actions. I doubt that I will ever be answered, but It's better to do things and hope than to do nothing.
From google and youtube you can find so many documents and videos about the real truth what is happening for example of Rachel Corrie videos where she tells to witness killings of innocent childrens on Palestine soil by Israeli soldiers and where she tries to stop bulldozers to demolishing houses of Palestinian people and eventually get killed by her self by one and this is just one example. By these words you can find many videos:
Occupation 101
The Iron Wall
Checkpoint
The Gaza Strip
Tradegy in Holyland, the second uprising
Peace, Propaganda, and the Promised the land
Promises
The Wall of Hate
Concrete Curtain
Jenin Jenin
Rachael Corrie
Detail, Avenge But One of My Two Eyes.
Palestine is still the issue

Under these links are pictures of dead Palestinians who was murdered in Sabra and Shatila refugee camp in year 1982
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And here are pictures to Palestine now
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and you can find hundreds of more.. all telling the same story; there are no terrorists in Palestine, there are only humiliated and frustrated people trying to keep their lives and homes against brutal and savage occupier who it self is even worse then the nazis. In many reports has testified that what Israel is doing is against all human rights, so why are we allowing it to continue? Are we afraid of them?
..who knows.. maybe it will someday be our land what will be taken by brutal force??

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I just found out today, that in Palestine is and has been activists, whitch some of them are killed by Israel, like Rachel Corrie who was standing infront of bulldozer and they ran her over Israeli also kills journalists who tells the truth. I hope they dont come to kill me now for telling this... ;)
Here is a two minute video of checkpoint where people goes waiting many hours before it opens to get to work in time..
Document named Peace, Propaganda and the Promised land WARNING!! includes violence! But this document all people should see.. I hope you watch this.. please..

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